So it's a new year

Ya so its the new year. a new decade is about to start. so whatever happened in the previous decade or the previous year? well lots of stuff. joy, pain, anguish, resurrection, revelation, tragedy and magic. well yes lots of it. what emerged out of the ashes of the left behind burnt days, but alive, are some introspections, worries, some burdens, some responsibilities and of course some more magic. Why do i constantly harp upon magic is because i consider life so. Its arbitrary and occassionally logical but its quite interesting and experiences enrich it. There are times when certain events have pained me, sometimes intolerable, sometimes impossible, but nevertheless when i look back i learn and carry those learnings to the future in a constant endeavour to smooth the rough edges that could be lying ahead of me, waiting to devour me with those sharp teeth of its. I look back just to clench my jaw(trying to avoid a TM-joint) forget the ashes and move ahead. I still dream on...


Year 2009
...Has been a testing year. away from my friends and extended family, my Love. ACj had been fun(in retrospection) and very teaching. My first job is still an event i will cherish throughout. Delhi has been amazing, inspite of all the complains. I visited Kolkata inly twice in 09 and my soul has become emptier, thus. I struggle to live on and create some substantial tangible matter a few steps ahead. In relationship, I have learnt things, found a plethora of faults of my own and have loved more. I have become tremendously unsocial, due to the lack of social society and of course, due to work pressure. I have aged too. Not in years, but through hours and experiences. I dont like looking at the mirror anymore and seldom worry about my attire and hairstyle. i am watching lesser movies in theatres and watching more soaps in television. sleep comes in inches and travelling has increased like never before. I have regained company again in my parents and its a secure feeling. I am happy about it. But there are a lot of things I have missed in 2009. I have seen a different culture exist parallelly and at most of the times been shocked by it. My temper has worsened, i have become cranky, lazy, impatient but I guess i am still lovable. My regrets in 2009 are the fact that I could not be present amidst my parents in their 25th marriage anniversary; my temper; and of course, the fact that I miss my folks in Kolkata, my life in Kolkata. Achievements- well, I am a journalist now; I have become more responsible and the fact that I think that there are a host of things which are still left to be achieved. Resolutions- well, magic!

Adios, till then...