Saturday, July 25, 2009

Introspections in solitude 1

Is there a difference between God and suffering? Maybe not. They both make you feel so very special, so close to them. You learn so many things, new events and their consequences and morals emerge. You pray with the same passion to be in proximity to one and be miles apart from another. Both gives you a sense of satisfaction at the end of an encounter. Both are engaging and all pervasive.

Its difficult to control anger. Specially if you dont want to. The consequences of a fit of anger, especially if its directed towards your loved ones, are damning and leaves you in a lurch, confused and flabbergasted. The pain which one feels after such an outburst is very difficult to explain to others, lest they dont believe you and if if they do, its very valid if they think," then, why the hell?". Something that you yourself, cant think of an answer to. As the horrors crawl at you during sleepless nights, haunting you to a shudder, you feel tired of yourself.

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